You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise: you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely…For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made…Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. Psalm 139:1-3,13,16

Friday, January 21, 2011


  Despite being able to think non-stop about taking this upcoming pregnancy test, I do have other things to do and to look forward to---We are excited to be planning a ski trip in the next couple of weeks!  I am a very slow and cautious skier, but I really enjoy it.  We are getting to go using points from our credit card…all those Christmas gifts for each other actually paid off-HaHaHa! I will try to post some pictures of us lying at the bottom of the mountain especially Neil when I can!
 I would like to say that in light of some of the terrible things that have happened around me in the last few days, although I am pleading with God for a child and also on behalf of a few friends as well, I have not forgotten how fortunate I am. I am healthy, physically and mentally, especially now that I am not currently fighting the endometriosis!(thank you Dr. Michael) I have a very supportive husband, as well as mother and father, mother-in-law and father-in-law, and three sister-in-laws, aunts,uncles, cousins and even their husbands.  I am blessed to be able to ask friends AND family for prayers. I am so thankful for all of my friends, my church, my home, my animal babies, stable finances--all of these are blessings from God.  I am not saying this to brag, but to point out that in my situation there is one thing I really want because that is what I am missing---if I were in a different situation I would be trusting God for something else.  We all are in need of something-we all are wanting something that we feel others have and we don't.  I am making a resolution to count my blessings in prayer before I begin asking for new ones.  I think God will bless me for my attitude of thanksgiving and I believe he will bless you for yours as well.
  Also for all you MWB(mothers wanting babies) out there, I have heard from several different sources that you should write a very specific prayer to God about your desires, one way to do this is to first look up a few verses that are promises He has made throughout the Bible to bless His people. I already told you my favorite is Psalm 128, but there are many. (another way to do this is to look for the book Supernatural Pregnancy. A friend gave this book to me and while I don't agree with all of it for every person, I do love the scriptures and the prayers, also it is a very interesting commentary on the power of faith.) Write this prayer, your own words to God and pray it faithfully.  He will bless your faithfulness.  My mother-in-law put it to me like this (and I loved it): when you have a child constantly asking you, begging or pleading for something over and over again, and you are capable, you will give it to them.  It's true! I don't want to be annoying but I do want to call on God and remind Him of the promises He made to me and all of his children long ago. He remembers the promises I have no doubt, but I think it pleases Him to hear us quote his word. I also think that when we pray His words aloud it blows away all of that doubt and fear that Satan tries to put into our head.  His will is sovereign but the Bible shows instances where He intercedes or changes His mind because of the faithful prayers and heart of one of His children.


  1. Thanks for sharing the prayer idea! I know after all the things we've been through I've begun to pray more and more specifically about my child/children! I'm also praying for yours!!

    So sorry for the loss of your friend, Vanessa, lifting her family up in prayer as well!

  2. Alisa, I am a horrible horrible person. Since our lifegroup split, I haven't taken time to talk to you! I had no idea any of this was going on! I feel awful! Sometimes we get so caught up in our own little world and can't see what's going on with others. I feel your pain about wanting a child. We struggled to have Olivia and continue to struggle to get pregnant again. I will pray for you! Let me know if I can do anything or if you just need an ear!

  3. Jamie--you are NOT a bad friend---I didn't tell anyone there was no way for you to know! I knew that ya'll were wanting to have another one at some point and I wish you the best luck. Plus, girl, you are so busy with livi and working-- I have really missed our lifegroup, both of them, I can't wait until we get another group going so we can all get back into fellowship. It's so tough to keep in touch without that weekly meeting. I love ya'll and am praying for you too!