You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise: you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely…For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made…Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. Psalm 139:1-3,13,16

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

And NOW you see...

that I am the worst person at being consistent. I have managed to go more than two weeks without posting anything or even looking at other blogs.  But today during my lunch break I have managed to get on my computer and get some things done.  I can say that other than just showing up to work and trying to function there, pretty much everything has fallen by the wayside lately because I have been so busy.  Last Wednesday my parents made it back into town and so I for some reason feel far more relaxed and as if I now have some support, which is kind of weird because other than seeing my dad at work and a short shopping trip with my mom, I really haven't seen much of them. I think it is just the knowledge that they are close by.
   This weekend Neil and I got to Houston. He took some Continuing Education classes and I took it easy!  I got to be treated like a celebrity. They made me fancy fruit drinks and virgin toddies and I laid out by the pool.  My big belly is super tan--while not much sun was seen by my back. I made a request for some ideas and what I got to help with that problem was this…my friend, Deni-also pregnant, suggested the use of a floatie with mesh in the middle for stomach. So I am going to make an effort to obtain one of those before my next tanning session.  We ate at some yummy places and I had terrible heartburn both nights of our stay but that is a small price to pay for this precious peanut!  Speaking of the little peanut, he wiggled non-stop all weekend and it was so cool.  At one point on Saturday while I was at the pool, he managed to get himself all the way over to one side of my body and I am not sure but I think he was standing straight up.  It was hilarious but hurt like I don't know what!  All I could think of to do was try to push on him and he laid back down.  I think if anyone else had been there they would have been laughing hysterically.  I just keep thinking what a funny personality this little man is going to have because Neil and I are possibly the two dorkiest people and might have the oddest sense of humor between us that if he even gets part of that he will be a hoot and will really keep us on our toes!
   Lately I have had this delivery thing on my mind a lot.  I am not scared yet. I feel very curious though about what will happen.  I pretty much know the process…something large will come out of a very small hole and I will be doing everything I can just not to scream like an idiot. But what I mean is... how will it all go down? Who will do what? Who will I tell my plans to? When will we talk about all of that? So far everything has been pretty simple at my visits to the doctor but I wonder when we will start making all of those plans.  I am nervous about who my nurse will be and if she will be nice and I am nervous about if my doctor is not on call or if I will go into labor on my own or my water will break at work or something. I just can't really imagine all of the circumstances and how I will handle them.  I am reading a lot about the physical process of what takes place with your body and what to expect as far as how each step feels and there is plenty of literature on those things but all of the other aspects are things that are very individual to each person's experience.  Those are the details you can't plan for and that is what makes me nervous!  At my next doctor visit, we will do my glucose test to check for gestational diabetes and I will plan on having my list ready to talk about all of the questions I have about the birthing stuff even though we have a long way to go before it is time.
   Now that I am back and we are on a new work schedule I plan to get back to daily posts so hopefully I will be back to myself and have some entertaining stories to tell you about…talk at you soon!

2 comments:

  1. We have a patient care coordinator at our hospital and Foxy and I sat down with her for 2+ hours and laid out how we wanted everything to go, and she gave us lots of details, that made me feel a lot more knowledgeable. Still having some questions, but overall feel much better. She makes you wait until 32 weeks to meet with her. I am trying not to worry about labor too much, you can't do much about that, it happens, then it's over! I just keep praying that Cala makes it here safely, and his happy and healthy!! :)

    I get the mesh rafts at academy, and have to go get some more since my two are busted up! :) But my bump seems to be averse to the sun, and not wanting to take tan!! :)

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  2. Alisa, love your post. I, like you, had all those questions & my doctor is one that doesn't give a lot of information unless you ask specifically. Although I researched everything completely, I came to find out on the birthing subject less is more! :-) I did, however, ask my doctor, "So when are we gonna do this? I'm kind of a scheduler." He said , "We can induce anytime at 39 weeks." I love it when a plan comes together! You'll do fine! Sending prayers to you and baby!

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