I can't believe that the last two weeks have flown by! I have really been so busy getting ready for Eli that I just didn't realize how quickly the days were going after I quit working---I have been off for two weeks and I don't know what I would have done without that time. All of his and my and Neil's clothes are washed and folded and put away and all thank you's are mailed and all supplies are organized, carseat is in the car along with all the bags except what I need in the morning to get ready. I even had the car detailed today so it would be clean! yes--full nesting mode! (Thank you to my mom for helping with all of that including cleaning my house top to bottom and even the baseboards at my direction!)
I am so excited for Eli to come into this world, but I also wonder about what it will be like…how will he act, what will he look like, how will I feel when I no longer have him in my tummy, what will Neil think of me, of Eli, how will our lives change….? I am worried I will cry, I already am as I am writing this, when he is born. There is so much emotion, so many feelings that I can't even express. Most of all I feel blessed. I am blessed to have become pregnant, blessed to have carried this little guy, so blessed to live in a time where medical technology is available to help Eli and I both to survive this process of breech birth with a C-section, blessed to have good doctors and hospitals, BLESSED to have such an awesome group of friends and family who would shower us with gifts and meals and visits and LOVE US! so much…We serve an awesome GOD who orchestrates all parts of our lives and who is able to weave together people and time and create such special circumstances for his glory. This will be my last post before baby Eli is born tomorrow. In less than 12 hours, I will be a mommy and I can't wait to see what scary, awesome, amazing, and indescribable things that means for me. I will try to have pics up ASAP but I can't post well from my phone so it might be Friday before that is possible, although I should be able to post to facebook from the hospital. For everyone following me…thank you SO MUCH for your prayers and love and kind wishes and just for thinking about us. WE are SO blessed to have each one of you as friends and are SO thankful for this time.
You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise: you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely…For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made…Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. Psalm 139:1-3,13,16